The hardest thing I found about this journey was finding the BALANCE.We all know how easy it is to gain all the weight back after dieting… After loosing 108 lbs I felt like eating clean and working out was pointless already. The result of that was two months of binge eating,I think I was consuming 5000-8000calories a day at that time.I couldn’t find the balance,I couldn’t eat just one cookie,I tried but every time I did it I started to think I messed everything up and as soon as I finished the whole pack I was running to the store to buy a few more.I never thought it would happen again to me…I started doubting myself again,I started thinking I wasn’t made to be slim, that it was my fate to be a bigger girl,that I’m a kind of person who would never be able to see anything between black and white.I was inactive on this account for a few months and I was too scared to log in and face the truth.I gained 8lbs back and one day I was like ‘that’s enough,you’re going back to your routines NOW,remember how hard exercising was for you when you weighted 220 lbs,do you want to go through it again?‘Ihad to change my mindset once again,I needed to stop treating exercising as atiring obligation and healthy eating like something I was forced to do to lose weight.I remembered how happy I was after each of my training sessions,I wanted to feel like that again.I stopped binge eating(I posted here my tips so you need to scroll down)I knew I had to start enjoying the healthy lifestyle and I had to understand that a few biscuits wouldn’t make me fat but giving up and eating more WOULD.
I’m happy to say that I achieved my balance now,I think it was a lot harder than LOSING weight. I’m proud I didn’t let myself give up.I love exercising now, ’m looking forward to my night workout every day!I love seeing how my body changes!I love my healthy meals!I also learned to enjoy just a few biscuits or one piece of cake without feeling guilty and thinking that my ‘DIET'is already destroyed.It’s such a relief now,I feel I’m at peace with my own body,I treat it well,I feed it properly and I train it hard.My body became my friend…we don’t cheat on each other anymore-we love each other!😍💕
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