It’s been about a year since I started my weight loss journey. Honestly, it started out as something as simple as wanting to be able to walk into any store of my choice and not wanting to feel ashamed when the largest size in the store was still too small for my body.
The picture one the left was November 2014. I weighed close to 290 pounds but never felt that “big.” November 2014 I wasn’t even the biggest I had ever been either. In the picture I’m wearing a 2x sports bra and a 3x pair of yoga pants, and they were extremely tight on me. I was wearing a 22-24 pant size in both my jeans and my slacks for work, 40-42 D/DD bra, 2x and 3x shirts, 2x sweatshirts, etc.
The picture on the right was taken about two weeks ago. I weighed in at 215 that morning. In the picture I’m wearing a large sports bra and an extra large pair of running shorts. The sports bra fits perfectly where as the shorts are starting to slide down when I do anything. I’m currently wearing a size 30 jean in my rock revivals and a 11/12 in regular pants, a 36 D bra, medium and large shirts, and large sweatshirts, etc.
I still struggle on a daily basis with eating and it stems from the eating disorder that I developed in high school. The eating disorder where I would eat some toast for breakfast, a granola bar and a Diet Pepsi for lunch, an afternoon snack, and then whatever my mom was making for dinner. As the big girl, nobody really notices when you don’t eat. All I wanted was to be able to fit in with the girls that I went to school with and it didn’t seem what I ate or how much I ate, I still managed to pack the pounds on. When I graduated high school I was probably weighing in around 270-280. I didn’t even realize I had an eating order until I learned about them and the tremendous impact that they have on young individuals in today’s society. I could go on and on about the negative effects and how I experienced them first hand, all while trying to hide them from my friends and family.
And still to this day I don’t see how eating 2000-2200 calories a day is helping me reach my ultimate goal, even though I’ve taken the nutrition classes and I know that I need to properly fuel my body. I still struggle on a daily basis with making sure that I’m eating and catch myself slipping back into old habits.
These days I’m more worried about striving for progress, not perfection. I’m eating clean and training mean. I’m thankful to have a few close individuals that I can turn to when I need some motivation and reassurance.
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