discolemonkayy: First is at my highest, second is at my lowest,...

discolemonkayy:

First is at my highest, second is at my lowest, and third is my current.

This may get long winded and may be scattered all over the place because there are a lot of things that I want to say and I don’t really have a particular order set up so as the thoughts come they will be typed out.
I know my blog doesn’t really reflect anything of a fitblrs and there have been times that I have thought of creating a separate blog just for health purposes but that is too much for me to maintain. Even thought I don’t post much health related content, I DO follow a ton of blogs that are health/fitness related and I love them so much.
I haven been on an uphill battle with my weight loss journey for about two years now. I started it in 2011, I was at 364lbs. I was actually quite happy with myself but I knew that I needed a change if I wanted to a live a long and healthy life. So I started out small just by cutting out soda and junk food and maybe doing 30 minutes of exercise 3 times a week. I was motivated though and that made all the difference in the world. Fast forward about two years into the journey and I was at my lowest weight 180lbs. I was working out 6 days a week (sometimes twice a day) I was super strict with what I ate and based all of my plans round my gym time. My downfall began after I turned 21 and got into nursing school, I didn’t have as much time to workout and going out and drinking became pretty routine. Needless to say I gained a decent amount of weight back. I was so mad at myself! I had lost almost 200lbs! It was a miracle.
So now to bring it back to present day, I am about 280lbs. Meaning I gained about 100 back. I am so ashamed. Who does that?!? I still work out 5 days a week and I eat mostly well. Way better than when I began this journey. My problem continues to be alcohol. I love it. I love going out and trying all kinds of beers and mixed drink and I know no moderation when it comes to booze. I can tell myself that I will only have one but that one turns into way too many. I NEED HELP. I need reassurance that I can get past this and get back to where I need to be. I need to know that others have struggled with cutting out alcohol. So please, anyone that has any advice or anyone that wants to hold me accountable. I need to do this. I’ve done it before and I NEED to do it again.

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