afoodiepatootie submitted: I pretended my weight didn’t exist...

afoodiepatootie submitted:

I pretended my weight didn’t exist for SO long, and I NEVER stepped on a scale. I knew when wearing a size 24 jeans when only months before I was wearing a 16 that my weight was shooting up, and fast. I thought maybe…250 lbs? When I finally had to step on the scale at the doctor’s office, I was smacked with the truth: I weighed 315 lbs. I was DEVASTATED. The doctor actually asked me if I was trying to kill myself with my eating. At first I just thought he was an asshole, but then I thought to myself, was I?

Dealing with PCOS, binge eating disorder, and depression, losing weight has always been a struggle for me. At the end of 2009, I decided that enough was enough. I was sitting in a class in college and my friends were talking about their summer plans, their travels, internships, jobs, etc. I just had this sobering moment of…Wow, I have NOTHING to look forward to. I was only 20 years old.

I texted my mom from that classroom and simply said, “I need help.” Over the next two years with the intervention of doctors, therapists, nutritionists, and finding a fitness and nutrition program that worked for me,  I lost 170 lbs. I finally stopped giving up on myself. 

I just wanted more! I wanted to love my body, wear cute clothes, feel confident.  I wanted to look forward to my life! 

Now I work out 6 days a week at home for around 30 minutes using programs I’m literally obsessed with, I meal prep, and no matter how many bumps in the road, I never stop moving forward. By working on myself SO freaking hard with my fitness, nutrition, as well as personal development, I was able to make fitness my full time business so I can work from home and focus on my health, happiness, and pay it forward and help others! I NEVER thought that I was capable of ANYTHING, but by finally facing my inner demons as opposed to pretending they didn’t exist, I slowly realized that I am capable of whatever I DECIDE that I am capable of! 

I went from 315 lbs, binge eating on my bathroom floor so no one would know…hiding my body, shutting myself off from others, running away from my problems constantly…to a healthy body and a healthy mindset where I can travel the world, make a living, help others, make positive healthy minded friends, and just live MY best life. Whatever YOUR best life is, you deserve that and don’t you dare think that you are incapable. 

I promise I am a HOT mess. I still have my issues. So if I can do this, I PROMISE you can! If you ever need support or just a friend, you can always shoot me a message!

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