100+lbs. Tears. Pain. Falling off. Hoping back on. Two a days. Eating. Not eating. Sacrifice. Constant struggle. Mind control. And the list goes on and on. I’ve seen so many before and after photos of men and women all talking about how far they’ve come and how it’s only getting better and all that stuff. Which I totally agree with. But one thing I’ve had yet to read is why they ever got as big as they were. And if they are out there and I missed them then my bad!! But seriously. I was average in elementary school. I got boobs in middle school and even noticed a belly coming. I’ve always been self aware. ALWAYS. In middle school I noticed my body changing but still chose to eat like my friends and well just be a kid. And then came high school. I was thick. I wasn’t huge, but I had some meat on my bones. I had boyfriends and a lot of friends and I never worried that I was “fat” or not pretty. But then I graduated. And I really kept turning my head away from the truth. I was gaining mass weight. I was watching my parents cook food that I KNEW wasn’t good for me. I was allowing myself to eat out and binge on junk food and fast food, which was a favorite at ALL the parties I went to. And then I saw a tagged picture of myself from my aunt. And I realized that was it. I had gained more than 100 lbs my first YEAR out of high school. I was HUGE. I was slipping away. And I couldn’t allow this anymore. I couldn’t be the Fat Funny Friend! I couldn’t. So I got a membership at a gym. I worked out at home and I finally changed my diet. The before picture was from January 2014. And the after is today. This morning around 7am. I have fallen off more than once. I had gotten “comfortable” and just stopped going to the gym and started going out to eat more and partying again and I realized oh $h!* I’m doing this AGAIN. Here I was again, letting my hard work fade away. So I hopped back on the fitness train. I don’t do mass cardio to just lose all the fat really quickly. I hate running. Like I hate running more than I hate anything ever. But lifting?!?! Oh now that’s my stuffff!!! I love lifting weights. I love doing aerobic exercises and I love cooking and eating healthy food!
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