2014 –> 2016
I was a high school graduate, simmering in the never ending guilt not being good enough, not being perfect. I was judged for having no idea of what my ‘true’ interests are, or what actually I’m going to do in my life. Back in 2014, everybody around me knew what they want while I was just a confused child to whom nobody told the rules of the game. Plus, I was obese - hence more social pressure and guilt. I was extremely not comfortable with my body, I wanted to change but I did not know how - I already had a label of “the fat and kinda dumb one” and I had no honest idea how to overcome it. I didn’t really want to, either. They know what they do, I thought, and if they think I’m this kind of person, probably it would be better if I actually was.
It would never be better.
However, the environment around me changed. I graduated and moved to another country. I had a new page in front of me, a new society where I was yet a no-one. For the first time in my life, I felt the ability to shape myself the way I want to. I was not eager to start, though - it was scary to let the previous social experience go. What if they will judge me for starting the gym? What if my ideas will be thrown away as usual? The risk was big, but the outcome was worth it, so I took a deep breath in and started carving a new self.
And it worked. I changed - in my person and in my body. Now I feel more mature, more in charge of my own life than I was before. Now I know that my body is a tool I can use to work on. Now I understand that the only thing that was stopping me before was the social opinion. Almighty “they”.
And you know what - fuck them. Do not listen to them. Seriously. You have no idea how more productive you could be if you just stopped caring how the others label you. Once you set yourself aside all of “them”, either physically or psychologically, you open up enormous powers within yourself. You begin to see how you can change a lot of things you do not like. You begin to live as your own person.
Your life should be free of people who are against your improvement.
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