Just finished my workout! And it stopped raining so I’m getting ready to go run some errands on foot! Wanted to share this side-by-side - I threw on this hoodie and remembered how tight it used to be. Looked up an old photo of me wearing it and I am so excited, but also want to share some thoughts I’ve been having all week:
Losing weight is weird. I’ve been on so many diets in my life, I’ve struggled with eating disorders and body dysmorphia. The past few weeks I’ve really been noticing my weight loss and it’s so thrilling. I’m so proud of myself and so happy that I’m losing weight in a healthy way that makes me feel strong and smart. I really feel like I am taking care of my body.
That said, it’s hard not to obsess over my progress and the number on the scale. It’s just what I’m accustomed to. I really want to get back in the habit of only weighing myself once per week. I want to focus on non-scale victories. Sharing this photo is me doing just that.
Weight loss is hard and it can take a mental toll on you. Even though I know I should feel confident and beautiful in my body, I still feel insecure. So few of my clothes fit me right. I keep wearing clothes that are too big for me that I wore last year - last year I was trying to hide my body under them and this year, I still feel afraid to come out. Clothes that do fit me make me feel self conscious because all of the sudden I feel like my body is worthwhile again and it’s weird to have clothes that are form fitting and flattering (seriously most of my wardrobe is oversized sweaters and tunics and leggings!).
It’s so much to process and take in!
The bottom line is though that I’ve been through so much with my body and my body image and I am SO proud of myself for being healthy and positive this go around. Remember: it’s a journey. Weight loss is a journey, self love is a journey, and they don’t always go hand in hand. One doesn’t come because of the other.
That’s all I’ve got. Thanks for reading if you did! Ok now to walk to Whole Foods to stock up on La Croix and see if they have the new Halo Top flavors!!
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