bracingbliss: No one will ever understand how hard this was is...

bracingbliss:

No one will ever understand how hard this was is for me to post. I’m embarrassed and mortified, but also prideful and thankful. I recalled images from a year ago when I started to take my “diet” and fitness seriously. This photo from 2015 isn’t even from the worst or least healthiest I’ve ever been. It’s not my heaviest weight, and it is not my lowest weight. I know there isn’t the biggest change or improvement from 2015 to today, but I am certainly trying my hardest everyday to achieve my fitness and health goals. 

Over the course of the last year to year and a half, I’ve been trying to clean up my diet and increase my fitness activity. From middle school through high school, I’ve struggled with weight fluctuation like no other. I’ve been on both ends of the scale – higher and lower ends. Of course I never realized this at the time, but I do notice the frequent (and I mean frequent) body changes over the past 5-10 years. 

For instance, I was pretty healthy and fit beginning my sophomore year of college in August 2013. By December 2014 I already saw the incredible weight gain that I’ve experienced. Everyone hears the horror stories of the “freshman 15,” and I thought I was safe. I was wrong. It hit me sophomore year when I gained 15+ pounds from excessive drinking, eating A LOT (like a lot) and frequenting take-out (thanks drunk Sar). I’ve always had insecurities, like everyone else, and never felt 100% comfortable in my skin or body. After sophomore year finished, I really hit a low in my confidence level. That’s when I started to look at myself in older pictures from a couple years prior… only deepening and worsening my insecurities. 

I’ve come to terms that my body is extra sensitive to diet and exercise, so I have to be extra careful at all times. I will notice that my body takes 1-2 weeks to recover from one day of “sorta” bad eating. I’ve never had a perfect diet or eating routine – in fact, I’ve probably had the most imperfect eating habits (again, on both ends of the spectrum). I’m not perfect, I’m not at my goal weight, I’m not in love with myself… but damn I’m trying. 

Also, don’t mind the pineapple covering my face… I’m saving your eyes from the horror. 

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